Friday, January 21, 2011

Let It Be NCLEX Exam, Just Let It Be

For the last few weeks I've been studying for the NCLEX back here in Chicago. About 8 hours a day, 6 days a week since Jan. 3rd.

The exam is tomorrow morning at 8 am.

If I'm being honest with myself, the studying is not going well. I can say without irony that I feel like I'm getting dumber the more I study. In the last few days before graduation, I took two NCLEX prep/readiness predictor tests to evaluate how prepared I was to take the exam. On both, I score in the 87-89%. You'd think that if you took that percentage and added to it an additional three weeks of study and prep, my chance of passing the exam should be in the nineties.

In the last few days, my scores on the practice exams have been steadily dropping, like to ridiculously low levels. So low, that I'm starting to panic. It feels like I'm in some kind of nightmare. I wake in the mornings thinking about the exam and my heart races; I have panic attacks.

I took the day off today to give my head a well-needed break from practice questions. Went to a movie this afternoon to enjoy some mindless diversion. I'm not sure it worked.

But one glimmer of hope: If God exists, he talks to me through my radio. And driving home this evening XRT played two songs back-to-back. The first was The Beatles "Let It Be" which is one of my 10 Desert Island Songs and one of two songs I want played at my funeral. The other, which followed immediately afterwards, was Coldplay's "Life in Technicolor" which is not only one of my favorite Coldplay songs, but it also has particular significance to by nursing career thus far.

I'm taking these as good signs for tomorrow.

OK, enough bullshit. I need to go to sleep so I can get up early tomorrow and kick some NCLEX ass..


  1. Well I'm late to the party so I can't say "good luck," but I hope it went well! :D I'm sure you kicked some serious ass!

  2. How'd you do??????

    This nursing seems to be stressing you out. I can't wait until you have that dream job. You've worked hard for it.

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